It's been an overwhelming week.
So much has been happening here in Australia, in my little community, in my little family. I find myself completely overwhelmed.
When I find myself feeling like that I usually clean. So today I cleaned out ALL our cupboards and drawers and took it down to donate to the Victoria bushfire appeals.
I grew up in a country town and still remember the Ash Wednesday bushfires and how the smoke clouded my little town. Thank God that's all it did.
I am usually a behind the scenes person, but this week a local paper published an article on Whispered Support with Carly and I front and centre. As a result every parents at my kids school knows who I am and what I have been doing.
They have all said wonderful things to me, all of which I feel totally unworthy of. It wasn't my intent for anyone to know about me at all. I just wanted to honour my brother and because acknowledging the loss of babies is something that seems to be a societal taboo. Though why it is I am unclear on. Nothing else is! Even today a conversation with a fellow mother who has grieved the loss of many babies left me feeling utterly helpless, though we parted with hugs on both sides.
I haven't been to yoga this week, I haven't prayed, I haven't been a good wife or parent.
And tomorrow I am going away.
My husband and I are flying east for an all too brief weekend away. It's a family celebration but it's also a chance for me to take a deep breath and refocus.
I will miss my darling children enormously but know they are safe in loving hands and will enjoy the adventures with my in-laws.
Thank you to those of you kind enough to comment or respond to my previous questions. Just so you know....
I had the spag carb (even though I secretly would have preferred the nachos. My parents are back safe and sound. When I'm not so "out of it" I will explore getting a new blog makeover, and yes I bought the jacket)
I read blogs of so many wonderful, awesome women, for whom it is about putting one foot in front of the other, and they do it stoically and gracefully.
I wish I could be both those things.
Hopefully this break away will help....