Today, readers, is my 30th birthday. I have endeavoured to ignore this astonishing fact, but there it is. I'm old. Of course, I still think of myself as nineteen, at the same time looking at other people who are 30 and observing that they appear mature, confident, intelligent, and authoritative. What's that Atwood quote? "Everyone else my age is an adult, but I am merely in disguise."Later