Dear Me

it has come to my attention that long term sleep deprivation may have made you become a tad irrational. I wanted to draw your attention to the following points:

When you fall and bang your knee so hard you see stars, then it's okay to have a few days off from exercise. It is not okay to wake up in the night stressing about it. Some people would call you weird. Start back at a gentle jog tomorrow.

When your parents drop off some prawns for you to cook because they know your husband is working late, and you are tired, it is okay to look at the prawns blankly and put them in the fridge. And have toast for dinner. Have the prawns tomorrow night instead.

When you have the rare opportunity to meet other mothers from your child's school it is NOT okay to envy their lovely jewellery and beautiful manicures. It is okay to admire them. One day you will win the lottery and be able to buy and have those things. Till then, be happy for them and make mental notes about where they bought them for future reference

When for the twelvth time that night your toddler wanders across creaking floorboards to place his chubby paws at your shoulders and breathe heavily down your neck, it is okay to muffle sobs of frustration. It is also okay to wake your sleeping husband and shriek LOUDLY at him that it is HIS turn to put Mr Small back to bed.

When you feel stretched every conceivable way, and feel guilt about the stress of your Bronze Medallion Course and trying to write something half decent that maybe someday will be published and read by other equally frazzled parents, as well as returning to work next week, remember this:
You can't have it all, all the time. You can have some of it most of the time. So relax and go and make a cup of tea.

Love